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I feel almost human again. I'm glad the mood has improved (how can I not be happy after listening to a bluegrass version of "Calling Dr. Love"?), but I'm getting tired of the mood swings. I guess I've discovered that I can't totally skip the SAM-e, although I may try to taper down again to see if that makes things less volatile. I'm not sure how I feel about the SAM-e thing, to be honest. I don't think there's anything at all wrong with needing some help with a chemical imbalance, but I didn't realize how utterly dependent on it I am right now. Some of that fragility may be due to the fact that coming up at the end of the week is the trip to Japan which I wasn't able to take for reasons I won't get into here, and I'm honestly very sad that I won't be able to spend the 20th with Brian as we were hoping.

Today was day two of slimfast for lunch and a mile walk afterwards; I was a little taken aback to realize that I really am 40 pounds above where I would like to be, but at least that might be the kick that I needed to actually try to do something about it.