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Dec. 25th, 2000 01:37 pmIt's so quiet here. We did the holiday thing with our friends on Friday night basically, so today is very quiet except for the kids outside playing with their new toys. It's just me and C., and he's still asleep.
I wonder if I'll ever get to spend the holidays with all of my sweeties. Unlikely, I'm sure. D. has a family, and M. I believe always goes back to his parents' house. Both obligations that I'm not part of and imagine I never will be. I'm back to daydreaming about having a big, big house and living with my sweeties and their sweeties and our friends and having a big ol' chosen family. Realistically, never going to happen. C. could never deal with that, and I'm a bit too desirous of alone time to live in a house with so many people, not to mention being unable to deal with living with children at this point in my life. But it's a nice thought anyway. Holidays would be so much more fun.
I wonder if I'll ever get to spend the holidays with all of my sweeties. Unlikely, I'm sure. D. has a family, and M. I believe always goes back to his parents' house. Both obligations that I'm not part of and imagine I never will be. I'm back to daydreaming about having a big, big house and living with my sweeties and their sweeties and our friends and having a big ol' chosen family. Realistically, never going to happen. C. could never deal with that, and I'm a bit too desirous of alone time to live in a house with so many people, not to mention being unable to deal with living with children at this point in my life. But it's a nice thought anyway. Holidays would be so much more fun.
