Happy New Year
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geekchickIf what you do on New Year's Eve, etc. really determines what your coming year is going to be like, then 2005 for me should be full of clean clothes and lots of yarn projects. I suppose it could be much, much worse. =) I wasn't in the best of moods last night, but I've decided that I'm going to do my damndest to start 2005 off in the right frame of mind. To that end, I've decided to dress up today in my ankle-length velvet skirt, a red velvet top, and stripey socks. Not ideal for cleaning in, but if need be I'll change. The sun is out and it's disturbingly warm (I went out barefoot to get the newspaper and was totally comfortable), so all this combined makes it easier to be in a decent mood.
C. had apparently not known of the traditional ham and black eyed peas dinner for New Year's Day, so I'm going to introduce him to it today. Do you have any idea how hard it is to find a ham small enough for two people, one of whom doesn't even like ham all that much? I may try to whip up a version of Hoppin' John with what I have in the kitchen, but odds are good that I'll just make the peas as a side dish instead. (Psst,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
anotheranon, look what I found: http://southernfood.about.com/ . Yay!)
2004 was okay, mostly, I suppose. Except Q4, which completely and utterly sucked ass, and I'm glad to see it gone. Too much death, too little joy all around it seemed. Good riddance. The rest of the year had some high points, some low points, and I think on the whole the first nine months pretty much were a wash. This isn't a bad thing, since it means at least that they weren't terrible.
I don't make resolutions, since I never keep them for more than a week anyway so it's kinda pointless wasting time with them in the first place and making myself feel like a loser when I fail at all of them. Instead, I'll set myself some goals this year; if I don't reach them, I'll be okay with that so long as I've made at least a little bit of progress on them.
Eh, there's a lot more I want to do this year, but my wrist is saying that's enough typing for now. Time to go dig out dinner ingredients and get the kitchen ready for another cooking/baking frenzy. I promised C. more black cherry brownies, so I suppose I have to go eat the last one so I can use the pan again. ;) Happy New Year to all of you, and may 2005 bring you lots of happiness.
C. had apparently not known of the traditional ham and black eyed peas dinner for New Year's Day, so I'm going to introduce him to it today. Do you have any idea how hard it is to find a ham small enough for two people, one of whom doesn't even like ham all that much? I may try to whip up a version of Hoppin' John with what I have in the kitchen, but odds are good that I'll just make the peas as a side dish instead. (Psst,
anotheranon, look what I found: http://southernfood.about.com/ . Yay!)2004 was okay, mostly, I suppose. Except Q4, which completely and utterly sucked ass, and I'm glad to see it gone. Too much death, too little joy all around it seemed. Good riddance. The rest of the year had some high points, some low points, and I think on the whole the first nine months pretty much were a wash. This isn't a bad thing, since it means at least that they weren't terrible.
I don't make resolutions, since I never keep them for more than a week anyway so it's kinda pointless wasting time with them in the first place and making myself feel like a loser when I fail at all of them. Instead, I'll set myself some goals this year; if I don't reach them, I'll be okay with that so long as I've made at least a little bit of progress on them.
- Work on the depression. If the current supplements aren't working, try a different combination. If those aren't working, then jump through all the hoops your PPO puts up and find a pshrink. I had some moments in 2004 of feeling like my baseline mood was genuinely happy, and it was incredible. It's been what feels like a lifetime since that's been true for me.
- Get the time alone that I need often enough to help me get my head out of my ass the rest of the time. If it involves spending a night in a hotel once every month or two, then do it. It may seem weird, but I really think I'm much more pleasant to be around the rest of the time when I've had a bit of time totally alone.
- Travel more. I've never had a two-week vacation (the whole idea of family vacations even is so strange to me, since we never really took them). There are so many places I've never been that I want to see: I want to go to Seattle and Portland (both OR and ME) and Santa Fe and LA and Savannah and Tokyo and Vancouver and Toronto. I want to see the Great Wall. I want to go to Antarctica. I've been to San Diego and San Francisco, but I want to go back. I want to visit friends in several of those places, and in Jackson, and beautiful downtown Fishers ;). I want to take train trips up and down both coasts. I want to drive across the country and stop in at all kinds of silly roadside attractions like the World's Largest Ball of Twine. I can't do all that this year, obviously, but I want to at least take a vacation away from home once this year.
- Learn something new. Pick up a new language (I could learn Japanese with C.), brush up on my Italian, maybe *gasp* learn to speak Spanish again so that my degree wasn't a total waste. Learn to dance. Improve my perl skills and maybe try to pick up Java. Do something to keep my brain in good working order.
- Try to be better about correspondence. I tend to read email, put it aside to answer later, and then later never comes. Maybe a "to answer" folder where stuff gets filed immediately after being read?
- Figure out how to love my job again. I don't, right now. I'm not sure if that's depression speaking or if it's something inherent in the job. Maybe the former. Either way, I should also figure out what I want to do when I grow up; I'm sure I don't want to do this for the rest of my life, but I don't know what else I might want.
- Savings. I keep wiping them out. I need to stop doing that. Seriously. And contribute to a 401k.
- Give the house a top-to-bottom cleaning. Go through boxes, organize things, and figure out what, if anything, to get rid of. I have too much Stuff in general.
- Cook more often. Which might also fall into the "learn something new" category, especially if I buy myself the copy of "On Food and Cooking" I've been lusting after in my heart.
Eh, there's a lot more I want to do this year, but my wrist is saying that's enough typing for now. Time to go dig out dinner ingredients and get the kitchen ready for another cooking/baking frenzy. I promised C. more black cherry brownies, so I suppose I have to go eat the last one so I can use the pan again. ;) Happy New Year to all of you, and may 2005 bring you lots of happiness.
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Date: 2005-01-01 11:03 am (UTC)But... including a third party there who likes ham *very* much...
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Date: 2005-01-01 11:08 am (UTC)You could always use one of those ham steaks?
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Date: 2005-01-01 11:11 am (UTC)I suppose we could've gotten a ham steak, but for some reason I find those rather...odd. *laugh* Oooh, maybe I could make ham filet mignon...ham steak wrapped in bacon! Can't get much better than that without the addition of cheese. ;)
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Date: 2005-01-01 11:12 am (UTC)Work on the depression. You know that you can beat this... last summer, there was a period of a couple of months when you mostly seemed happy, more like you once were. This has been a tough couple of years, overall. ((hugs))
And I know I told you last night, but happy new year, dear.
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Date: 2005-01-01 11:20 am (UTC)*giggle*
2nd-fastest-growing municipality in the nation, behind only Clark County (Lost Wages), Nevada.
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Date: 2005-01-01 06:36 pm (UTC)And yes, do something about the depression. Life's too short to run around feeling lousy!